COVID-19 with a Baby: Day 2

Day 2 update! I did my COVID  test at the drive-thru window of CVS last night. It honestly wasn’t nearly as bad as I hyped it up in my head. We will be waiting to hear back on that…they said it could be 2-4 business days. 

Addilyn was tested at her peds office and they also said 2-3 business days. She was SO brave, ya’ll! She didn’t even cry. Im so proud of my little love bug. So far she and Michael are asymptomatic and fever free. Praying continually for their protection!

Last night was very rough. Lillie was up every hour and super fussy/uncomfortable. She still has an upset tummy this morning, but is nursing, drinking pedialyte and eating at least a little bit of solid food. Thankfully, the fever seems to be a little better managed and is only going up if I let too much time pass between meds. Before, it was still low-grade even with the Motrin/Tylenol so I am calling that a win! Poor girl seems like her ears are bothering her and has developed a pretty yuck diaper rash from all the messy diapers. All things considered, she is in good spirits!

Now for the stinky part. Mama is showing symptoms this morning. I knew it was highly likely. I mean how can you even remotely avoid the saliva of a teething, nursing 10 month old? Even if my test is negative, I will likely act as though it was positive and assume I maybe tested too early. I have a cough, headache and body aches. Mostly I am feeling some anxiety over the whole thing, and just clinging to 2 Timothy 1:7. Please continue to pray for my anxiety and for symptoms to stay on the mild side. 

Even if Addie’s test is positive, as long as she is not showing symptoms we will continue to separate. This is just what we feel is best for now. I cannot even fathom risking making her sick. I do miss my baby so much though! We got to FaceTime this morning and that was good for everyone.

Now for some heart talk, you guys. I really was struggling last night. I felt so guilty. How in the world did I allow my 10 month old to get this? Did I fail her as her mother? Did I slip up and not keep her safe? Are people judging me?? The mom guilt was eating me alive. No one wants to feel responsible for their child’s suffering.

And then I opened up my Bible and spent some time in prayer. And you know what? God spoke a truth into my heart. This happened because He allowed it. I don’t have to be afraid, because He is in control. There is a purpose in all of this. So if you’re a mama reading this and feeling that same mom guilt, I want you to hear that too. This is no one’s fault. It is just something that happens. There is absolutely NO way to know where she picked it up, despite our best efforts. It could have been at her well child check up. It could have been visitors in passing. It could have been one single germ that was on my hand after running into the store. We do the best we can and we have to trust Him with the rest.

Thank you all for the continued prayers and outpouring of love. I am humbled. From a friend running a meal by, to groceries dropped off, to gifts and comfort items, a hair dryer because our only one was here with me, an Amazon wish list to send essentials, gift cards to buy essentials.I am blown away by the amazing tribe of people who have shown us love, even people that do not know us well. God is good and I am humbled.