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I am a crier. I feel things deeply, especially sadness or pain. On good days, I struggle with anxiety and on low days, some depression, too. After we lost our first baby, I found myself in a particularly hard spot. We had prayed for this child and dreamed for this child and wanted this child so much. And yet there I was with empty arms and a broken heart. Add to that months of trying and failing at getting pregnant again, meanwhile watching literally everyone around me get the very desire of my heart. It was a gut wrenching time, and to be honest, I was fairly certain that God had just closed the door to my prayers and wasn’t listening to me. Maybe it was my lack of faith? Maybe He just didn’t love me the way that I had thought He did? Maybe “His timing” and “my timing” weren’t matching up…but what then of the “ask in faith and you shall receive”?
I know so many women that go through this same internal struggle. Working in miscarriage and infertility ministry, I see it often. Even those who are clinging to Christ with all that they have often seem to feel the weight of their sadness.
This world is broken. In this life there will be pain and heartbreak. Christians are not immune to this, as we live in a fallen world. Whatever the situation that is crushing your heart- be it an unfaithful spouse, a failing marriage, a wayward child, the loss of a parent, immense financial struggle, the drifting away of a close relationship- I want to encourage you today with a verse that has really spoken to me.
God has not turned His back, and He never will. His love is immense and unending, and more than capable of handling your pain. He hears us when we cry out and He longs to hold us and heal our broken hearts. And He is at work in our situation, even though we may not feel it in that moment. God is not limited to time in the same way that we are. As my favorite Author, Lysa TerKeurst, says so often, “God is good at being God.” He knows what He is doing, far better than I do!
Sweet friend, you are not unheard. You are not unloved. You are not cursed or forgotten. You are held right where you are, in the midst of your heartache and pain. It will all come full circle. You will smile again. And maybe, just maybe, you will get to see an incredible purpose in your pain; how it made you stronger and allowed you to help others. I know I certainly did! Until then, cling to this promise.